at the end of a year, it's become a bit of thing for me to recount those 365 days in photos and play them back in both tiny, tiled squares and also at warp speed, flip book style. each serving a purpose, each having me walk through the year i just lived. travels and times, friendships both old and new, transitions and traditions. so many memories, all so precious, all so fleeting.
for me, 2016 was a good one.
while 95% was that "good" stuff, it was a year that threw so much at me that at times it was all a little too overwhelming. it was hard, but the growth made it all so, so worth it. as myles and i rounded out our first full year of marriage, as well as our first year in our third, and homiest of homes, it became apparent that we fit together better than we could have anticipated and the knowledge that we gain each day makes the hard stuff just a little bit easier to cope with. on the lighter side (and to be a little less dramatic) i'm still finding myself mystified and giddy when i learn something new about the man i'm married to. [ case in point: i bought him hand drawn halifax for christmas and to sit next to him as he scoured the book was wonderful - he had a story for almost every page :) ]
2016 was also a tremendous year for me, my inner me. it has been a year of intense self-reflection, searching and awakening. i've taken time for me (sometimes given in large chunks due to the fact i have a touring spouse) and savoured it, strengthened bonds, made connections and changed directions in my "day job" to be happier and more on brand. even deeper still, this year has been a big one for my confidence and how i see myself as a woman - strong, beautiful. my body has never been something that i've spent too much time obsessing over, but like everyone, there's always those things you wish you could change or "fix". this was the year i just said "fuck it" to all of that and was happy with what i saw - free, even. on top of being more comfortable in my own skin, i started doing and sharing things that made me happy. what an incredible feeling it is to be yourself and be comfortable enough to just not give a shit. let's take the above photo, for example. it's not something i would have shared before, worried what people might think of my body or my self-worth. "half naked on the internet, must be a cry for attention" "thunder thighs" "saggy arms" "no boobs" "zero self-respect", to name a few... but with the new i am woman, hear me roar attitude that's been bubbling up inside, i would tell that person that my self-respect is through the roof (and the level of my self-worth is none of your business anyways) that there's nothing to be ashamed of, and that i'm proud of my not-so-perfect-by-the-worlds-standards body and this moment between my husband and i - we look great.
all this being said, it's my hope (and reason for sharing. sharing = real, real = accountability) that this fierceness carries on into the year that's now upon us. i am my own person, a woman with drive and passion. there is work to be done and 2017 is the year to do it.
p.s: because i'm not quite done/on a final note/adding to my accountability...
some of the things i put on my 2017 goals list:
- begin a daily writing project i've been meaning to get to for years
- create a budget and STICK. TO. IT. (hello, new car)
- drink more water
- read more
- learn something musical
- spend less time online and more on friendships
- find somewhere to volunteer
- organize my trillion loose photos/albums/book projects
- grow a better garden